HOW HE MUST HAVE FELT

Recently I lost a “Near and Dear” One , lost to the reality of life i.e Death . I was aggrieved at the hand of this reality, a detached so to say “emancipated soul” individual like me couldn’t withstand this “irrecoverable loss” . I have seen so many people depart to the eternal abode but never felt similar feeling, a void, a feeling inexplicable, beyond expression. Every time those excruciating feelings were moving up and down within me , my mind used to make a journey to two events which my friend had faced earlier . First let me talk about this friend , ( not sharing his identity since he is a very private person , might not like sharing this in public ) , we have grown together from the early days of our childhood of Malapora ,Srinagar to infatuations at sarwal jammu , to working together at Mira road , Mumbai , to our struggles in liver pool ,United Kingdom . About the two Incident s, he was just in 7th standard when his father passed away, another cruel incident was when he was doing his MBA and his mother passed away . During my recent tumultuous times, when I was mourning the demise of my “near and Dear” one, my mind used to transcend to those times, how he would have felt, how he would have reconciled with those moments of Mourning. It must have been painful, even though I vividly remember how i felt bad during those two events but perhaps now after so many years I can connect, relate and identify what he must have gone. In retrospect, I again want to condole, albeit, with a different feeling. A feeling, which even my thoughts cannot express, let alone talk of Pen. Let those remain sublime, occult, unexpressed... Rgds

My reluctant Journey to Kabul - Story of Snow

First let me give some brief introduction about myself,its not that its required,most of the inhabitants of this Planet Know me.But,still let me do it. Depending on which Language you use ,in English they call me "Snow", in Persian they call me "برف" and in Kashmiri they call me "Sheen". I am usually found in mountains,in some cities found seasonally,and in some rare locations for whole of the Year.Reason I am here,is to share my reluctant journey to a Unique city with a Unique History- My reluctant journey to Kabul.A city with History ,Culture ,birth place of Invaders , and what not .. As I make descend towards Kabul , crossing Hindu Kush mountains ,my reluctance is quite palpable otherwise I am quite happy to show my presence elsewhere even in far away kashmir , where last two Decades have also seen what Kabul has been facing for several Decades. I remember the Era when soviets had not arrived on the scene,it had not become a "ring" for settling Cold War ,internal Fights of mujahedin ,was not part of Strategic Depth , neither was part of Islam v/s west nor war on Terror. It was hunky dory place with Gay Faces. Oh , I really Miss those days ... I am aghast when people, away from this land, want to use it for furthering their arguments, interests ,novels, write ups, narratives, political and religious affiliations.It pains me . Next two years are crucial , I cant make any prophecy but it seems situation will not come back to the Era I aspire for .. I sense , I will have to make these reluctant journeys for some time to come ... an unfortunate witness to the miseries of Afghans -

PS - These photos are of November,2012 and are taken by ZOHRA NAJWA,resident of Kabul.I had met her during my Visit to Kabul

OH emperor of maladies!

You are what life is, nobody knows what you are, why you are there, your birth, your progress , your death ! Though you bring pain with you, what I like about you is, you’re a metaphor of life. How! Nobody knows why we exist , why we come and go ,why we live life which in any case has to cease .Similarly, nobody knows why you arrive and do what you do…….and eventually cease with the very life. Beside that what I like about you is a shrouded mystery, yet to be unveiled, similar to that of life. Another aspect I like about you is non-discrimination –which is what life is all about on this earth. You don’t discriminate between organs , ( you can make home in any organ ) , ages , gender , Nationalities , caste , Income group( Rich or Poor) ,religions …………… This Non Discrimination aspect is what sets you apart from life, which is based on discrimination basis religion, language, Gender, Income, nation, state, district, Mohalla, etc. … It is said you make your presence when a normal process of cell growth fastens ,isn’t it paradoxical , every human being aspires to outpace the normal growth ,and here a Smallest unit of life ,wants to grow faster that it’s predisposed genetic growth and consumes the very life. I bow before thee! Before I leave, Cancer is a kind of derogatory word in this world and unfortunately human being calls you with this name.

The Unhappiness factory of kashmir -Usual reactions

http://inpec.in/2012/05/07/the-unhappiness-factory-of-jammu-and-kashmir/ ,written by a dear friend as anticipated has generated responses which are typical of any piece on Kashmir , where one sees Kashmir as it is . The responses are ,its written by Neo Ikhwani ( Ikhwani's were the renegades in kashmir ),its conspiracy of Indian state , Indian media , etc etc ... Most of you those who don't follow Kashmir ,such responses have become raison de etre for such People . But what worries me , do they actually belive in what they say , closing their eyes to the reality or they are just doing it for the Audience. If its for audience , I reserve my comments but if they genuinely believe then its a cause of worry .Blaming Indian media continously is quite surprising since most of the media houses in India are filled with people from Kashmir , just few days back Indian express had carried a full details about pathribal incident which provided a graphic details of the alleged fake encounter ,yet the indictment of Indian Media continuously baffles me.I implore upon my fellow kashmiri's to look beyond conspiracy , take cognizance of reality .Aspiration for azaadi can go hand in hand with the reality , it doesnt entail distorting the facts ......

Girls filmed, clips sold Parents beware: Porn racket hits Valley- INDIA

This is one of the Headlines of one news portal and apparently it gives some insight into how Everyday many clips of young men and women in compromising positions exchange hands through cell phone transfers and via Bluetooth. Many a times these clips are sold for as little as Rs.10 or as high as Rs 500 with buyers available across the valley.This new MMS scandal phenomena is not new in fact now people have become immune to such videos in whole of south asia. But what struck me how this is debated and discussed in various forums of Kashmiri people. Rather than introspecting it and looking at holistically, they have started attributing this social problem to India as well .Here is one such comment by one individual" Besides, all this we have to understand that we live under an occupation of a nation whose religion teaches them to worship sexual parts of their gods and their political, and economical culture is outcome of a "Brahmin-Banya Civilization" whose sexual appetite is far worse than the church and whose love for Laxmi is has blinded them of every thing. These factors have direct influence on our culture which is injected into our children via various means. I remember Mahabarata and other such programes used to be telecasted DD 1 everyone used to watch them eagerly. It was before cable tv came to kashmir" This comment is not an aberration , its reflection of the mindset of vast people of kashmir , where every problem is today attributed to India . In short run ,it might assist in deflecting the core problems and get some poltical mileage ,but in Long run such mindset will deimate the analytical assessment capacities of the society,which no "Azaadi" can repair . follow on twitter :rajumoza

WHY I AM TAKING SABBATICAL FROM K GROUPS

My jouney with K groups started few months back; there have been some worthwhile interactions with cross section of people. K being a multifaceted problem, it was good to ascertain the various views from the cross section of people.
But if one holds a neutral view and see’s K as its, not from the prism of any stakeholder’s, then you are misfit for any group (barring one). Second issue is of labelling, it doesn’t matter what you say, but your ethnicity will be kept in mind. Recent case is in one of the conversation in which I was talking about K movement losing support from friends , on that page , he rebuffed my assessment but in other group he started one thread saying perhaps we need to be cautious about losing friends 
Third set of problem is absolute narrative, which is defined by his ethnic origins. Position is so much ossified; it’s hard to find a space. In this absolute narrative there is either my way or highway
Keeping these 3 broad factors in Mind, I have decided to take sabbatical from these groups and come back if there are new developments ,which perhaps need to be understood and discussed .
Offline I will continue to remain engaged with K.